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Christopher Wolfgang Bird
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[11 Aug 2005|11:42am] |
Blood and tears
Blood and tears
Since you've been gone
I hear you've been crying
Blood and tears
All alone
In your misery
So alone
Could you have
Been deceived
Since I've been gone
I hear you been crying
You cry a thousand tears
Darling don't despair
I know your heart still bleeds
Darling don't you care
There's blood in your tears
All alone
In your misery
So
All alone
You are lost
Endlessly
Since you've been gone
I hear you been crying
You cry a thousand tears
Darling don't despair
I know your heart still bleeds
Darling don't you care
You cry a thousand tears
Darling don't despair
I know your heart still bleeds
Darling don't you care
There's blood in your tears
Yea, you cry a thousand tears
Darling don't despair
I know your heart still bleeds
Darling don't you care
Yea, you cry a thousand tears
Darling don't despair
I know your heart still bleeds
Darling don't you care
There's blood in your tears
There's blood in your tears
Blood and tears
Blood and tears
Blood and tears
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[06 Jul 2005|08:25pm] |
Fragments of the past flash before my eyes
Never ending streams of images colliding
Silhouettes of memories slowly fading away
Illusionary seductions haunts me in my dreams
Fighting for freedom
But the chains I'm in won't break
It will soon be too late
I am here, I am lost, I am weak, & bothered
Is this it?
Will I grow when my soul falters?
I am here, I am lost, I am weak, & bothered
Is this it?
Will I grow?
I am weak & bothered
Blinded by the fear
Of being left alone
I seek the truth within
As the shadows are closing in
Calling oblivion
Cause the state I'm in won't change
And I'm fighting for freedom
Cause the chains I'm in won't break
I am here, I am lost
I am weak & bothered
Is this it?
Will I grow when my soul falters?
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[16 Jun 2005|01:26am] |
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fuck that.
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[22 May 2005|01:33pm] |
I love how no one comments on my journal anymore. but then again I guess I dont really update enough to complain
Dates pushed back im leaving sunday..... 1 week from today. I will be gone for a few months... so if you want to hang out with me let me know and I shall try to pull it off.
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| Holy aviaries Batman! |
[09 Mar 2005|01:45pm] |
Well, in the past few months I've been living like a king. I've been pretty drunk or stoned alot lately.....which is sort of unhealthy but oh well, It's almost time to quit for a while (or atleast to cut it back alot). I've been hanging out with these girls from Teays valley alot lately. they are fuckin awesome, we always have alot of fun lol. Like the other day we were just driving around wooing at people which they are the ones that started doing it.... which was funny cuz just like a week before that I was drivin around with Derrick and Adam and doing the same thing hahaha.
lets see here.... some serious things that have happened in the past couple months
december / january: I continued to try to be with roach but things just werent going my way at all. I had a couple mental break downs in this period. i guess roach managed to push me over the edge. i started drinking and other things again to deal with my mental issues. then i stopped doing it to deal with things and started doing it for fun...which is how it should be. i went to logan a whole lot which also really helped me get my mind off things. started hanging out with D-Rock again
febuary: did a few final attempts with roach (most importantly valentines day) but she decided to go with roger instead which was understandable since they already had plans, but i tried going to her house later that evening so we could hang out...i took a drunk mcjosh along with me cuz he wanted to see jamie. roach made me leave (even tho i hadnt been drinking or anything) i was pretty upset and offended so i went home and did tripple c's. roach shows up later wanting to have a talk which i wanted to do earlier....but clearly i was out of it but i still remember everything that happened although i was a dick to her. she was pouring her heart out to me, and saying how i have all these friends to talk to about things and to help me through it and i responded with "yeah, well i dont make out with all of my friends" then she just kinda got up and left. lets see what else happened in febuary..... I met Rachel(aka Mitch), Kaitlin, and Amanda X2 and a few more of their friends. I finally stopped feeling that need to be with someone and started enjoying the single life. Met GJ and hes fastly moving up the ranks as a great friend we have a whole lot in common, he has alot in common with adam also.....so maybe a triforce will once again be formed like back in the days of me adam and greg. well i guess you could consider adam derrick and i a triforce...hmmmm...
so far this past week: hung out with Mitch a whole lot and her friends, got some absinthe (its freakin awesome), Roach made her final attempts and now never wants to talk to me again, i wanted to be back with her...but i really didnt see it working out in the end which that would just add more complication and drama and make things more bitter between us, i wanted to just be friends atleast for a while till i see how i want my life to go, but she didnt want that so i guess its just time to move on. I started dating mitch yesterday... we talked about it and we both want a non serious relationship.... one where we just have alot of fun and arnt up eachothers asses all the time, but also with some commitment so that sounds fun and we will see how that plays out....
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[21 Sep 2004|11:08am] |
You are a packet of soy sauce. No, not a bottle,
and not real soy sauce, but that flavored,
colored, salt water they call soy sauce.
You're not giving life your all, are you?
Somethings holding you back. Somethings
keeping you form truely being happy. You've
been diluted. Not the true you. Find whats
distilled you, and be real soy sauce one day.
The Whats In Your Kitchen Personality Test
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[03 Sep 2004|01:16pm] |
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Happy 26 months Roachy <33333333333333333
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| hate hate hate |
[30 Aug 2004|12:08am] |
so i saw this guy the other day and he was wearing a shirt that pissed me off and made me hate america even more. at first i thought it was just a pic of the american flag waving. BUT as i looked closer it wasnt waves i was seeing it was JESUS on the fuckin american flag and below it it stated "in god we trust" i was so pissed off. seperation of church and state my ass. what about all the other ppl in this country with other religions, how would they feel about that. i know if i was a religious finatic and saw that on a tshirt id want to fly a plane into an important building myself.
luckily that day i felt justified because lindsey was wearing her anti-flag shirt and i was wearing my religion breeds ignorance shirt.
another thing that was brought up today that i hate is pro-life men. WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU TO SAY A GOD DAMN THING ABOUT IT. your not a female, and you dont hafta go through the birth process. god damn.
a list of other things i hate
police, jacob mcgill, bob sparkman, greg jones, christians(all sects), most republicans, most democrats, most rednecks, white "gangsters", most hippies (although the whole love and peace thing was good i just hate them in general), capitalism, the american empire, "policing" of other countries, the usa, the patriot act, whores (male and female)*i dont discriminate*, people that completely change themselves according to who they are around, hardcore, nu metal, most pop punk, most metal, most rap, most country, most techno, spiders...most of the time, most small dogs, guys that treat women like shit, women that treat guys like shit, the phrase "the man of the house" and all the guys that use that as an excuse to over power all others opinions in your household, alcoholics, ppls thats slaved themselves to drugs, ppl that allow religion to put a bias on all your beleifs even if you feel differently, vecna, sexists, racists, jingoists, nationalism, americanism, globalization, GEORGE W. BUSH, partially hate john kerry , ralph nader-he has no chance in a two party system (i have a theory hes working for the bush administartion to steal votes from what would be democratic votes), jesus, flags - specifically the american flag, ppl that judge you before they know you (i know everyone does this to a point but some ppl do it at extremes), ppl who force their own belifs/values on others, the expansion of the western culture destroying other cultures (this includes the spread of christianity), and im sure theres alot more but i dont feel like listing them and im definately not even touching the whole foods section.
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[24 May 2004|04:46pm] |
And I will flail under these lights that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists together
and feel an ocean breathing waves, feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me
and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
The nightingales are singing now.
They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees.
Their jewelery is thrown into the air.
They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground.
The trumpets call out now.
We're home at last.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
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[03 Feb 2004|09:24pm] |
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Happy 19 months Rachel <3
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[13 Jan 2004|01:50pm] |
cross posted from psychotic's update in the Hard_core community
"Hardcore Kids" have to be the biggest group of prissy faggots i've ever seen. You're like a bunch of stuck up cheerleaders, except instead of wearing skirts, you wear your little sisters jeans and strut around going out of your way to bring each other down, just to make yourselves feel better. Ego fucking maniacs to an EXTREME. Take away your precious scene and you're worthless.
Unity my ass, more like i'm better than you, so suck my fucking balls.
heres a link if you guys wanna see the comments
http://www.livejournal.com/community/hard_core/966899.html?view=7046387#t7046387
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[13 Jan 2004|10:21am] |
hahahahahah i just took heffe and threw him on joshin and joshin looked offended and layed there for a few seconds and i was like man i wouldnt take that she id kick his ass then joshin got up and ran and tackled heffe and started kickin his ass hahahahaah. (btw if you dont know joshin and heffe are my cats)
oh yea so im so fuckin happy right now cuz rehab decided to fund me that money like they were =D so ima be gettin 240 a month from them again and i got 1700 in the bank right now and ill have my work study money and food stamps so im pretty set to live alone again woohoo. so yea i think this time ima have plenty of money to last me the semester... and maybe even through some of the summer lol
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[30 Dec 2003|02:03pm] |
the oceans nerve: i don't know my fair ... punkster?
AskingForIt Punk: did you just hit on me?
AskingForIt Punk: HAHA
the oceans nerve: haha. omfg. you faggot. no. haha.
hahaha thats classic
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[18 Dec 2003|12:00pm] |
OMG I GOT AN A- ON MY I/O PSYCH REPORT!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *DANCES* lol man im so happy cuz that paper was worth 20% of my grade so that HAD to pull me up alot getting an A- omg!! i might have got a B in the class..hopefully atleast a C cuz i did have a D.
yea so xmas is coming up. im just gonna burn cds for everyone cuz im poor and since i dont really know what anyone wants, when i have my shindig thing everyone can just pick what cds of mine they want copied. Tomorrow me and Roach are exchanging gifts and i hafta bring some stuff to her at work next week.
Went to the movies and saw LTR. I saw david and bill there. I got really depressed last night after I went home. It was because Rachel was there but i couldnt talk to her or anything. i was probably looking at her for about 1/4 of the movie, yea im pathetic. every now and then she would catch me lookin at her and it made me smile. Im glad she got to get out of the house tho and atleast got to see the movie with me..in a way... I was happy just to have her in my presence(at the time). but yea, when i got home i almost started crying, but the cats kept me from it cuz they were attacking everything and they tore up my necklace but thats ok cuz it was kinda fun watching them... until they shit in my floor, bastards.
so also yesterday morning i went to valley and passed out open airs. I talked to david for a bit and we agreed that we need to start hanging out. Then i told mrs. hill my life story (after highschool) and i was tellin her about how i need a job for the summer and she said i can probably work at the inn but i cant have died hair and i hafta apply in april. she said a mohawk would b ok but it cant be really tall and i told her most likely i wont have it spiked at work anyways.
ok. im done.
I <3 you Rachel.
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[16 Dec 2003|12:51pm] |
derrick i woulda put colony but it didnt show up on my list for some reason
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[14 Dec 2003|11:43pm] |
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holy shit i j ust found rachels grandmas ring thats been missing since i first moved here =)=)=)=)=)=)
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[09 Dec 2003|12:57pm] |
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i just walked in sallys office and there was a box that said "to Dr. Roach psychology adjunct" reminded me of rachel =)
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